December 2023’s short story of the month
It was strange to sit up in bed and smell the coffee coming from the kitchen and realize I wasn’t the first person up. I liked the idea of a hot cup of coffee waiting for me downstairs. But for so long it had been my kitchen and my kitchen alone, and I was having a lot of trouble sharing my space. Being married was more challenging than I’d thought it would be.
We’d fallen in love on our last mission, and we thought being married would be our next grand adventure. We didn’t realize it would be our next war zone, or maybe that was just me. I wasn’t sure how Trevor felt. He was quiet, and he didn’t express his emotions very often. Perhaps that had been why I’d been surprised when he’d confessed his feelings for me. It was one of those moments that I played over and over again in my head trying to decide if it had really happened the way I remembered. Sometimes it felt more surreal than anything.
****
Another bomb dropped on the station. I was running full speed to grab a weapon. We were all mobilizing. This was the fifth attack this month.
The station’s alarm system was blaring at a deafening level. I barely heard it though. I was laser focused on getting to the arms room.
I wasn’t the only one. Every other soldier was heading in the same direction.
I joined the line, which was moving quickly. At the front, I was handed my plasma rifle and told to report to team C. Team C was made up of the long range marksmen, and their leader was Captain Trevor Eisenhower. Rumor was that he was a descendent of same famous military leader from Earth, but who knows. A lot of families changed their names when they moved to the colonies.
Everyone was chatty and joking around on the ship over to where we would make our stand. I was always quiet when I was heading into battle. I tuned out those around me and tried to steel my mind before combat.
The joking and casual atmosphere suddenly got quiet. I looked up. The captain was standing at the front of the ship facing all of us still strapped in our seats. He wasn’t moving or saying anything. He just scanned the rows of soldiers and waited for everyone to notice him.
Once quiet finally descended throughout the ship, he nodded and spoke. “Be prepared. This is the largest attack to date. Follow your team leaders orders. No questions asked. Don’t hesitate and aim true.”
That was the first time I saw him.
****
When I enter the kitchen, there is a cup waiting next to the coffee maker for me. It already has two scoops of sugar and creamer in it. All I have to do is add coffee and stir. He does this every morning for me.
I make my coffee and sit down to consider why when he does something so thoughtful, it bothers me. I think it’s possible that I’m just used to be alone and the idea of sharing my space with someone feels intrusive. Also, I’ve never had someone know how I take my coffee and prepare it for me.
Maybe I should try and find something to do for him every day.
****
We’ve been lined up for close to two hours, and we haven’t seen any of the enemy yet. The foot soldiers are the ones who see most of the combat. We’re more like a last line of defense.
We take turns lying prone with our rifles. We switch out every hour. No sense in getting fatigued while we’re just waiting.
The captain has been pacing behind us checking in with the team leaders.
This time when the captain passes by, he stops and talks to my team leader for a long time. He is facing me while they talk even if I can’t hear what they’re discussing. I notice he keeps watching me.
I’m just standing where I’m supposed to with the others waiting to swap in. He doesn’t speak to me. In fact, after that first night, I didn’t see him again for a month, and he didn’t speak to me for almost three months.
I wait even after he leaves. We switch out like clockwork. We don’t do it all at once, in case an attack starts. We swap one at a time, down the line.
As I’m getting into position, the foot soldiers, which were the front line, are hurrying back behind the second line of defense. They ready, and the team leaders for the marksmen tell us to ready to fire.
They come running at full speed. I take a deep breath and look down my scope waiting for the team leader to give the okay to fire.
It’s easy to distinguish our troops, who wear grey or black armor, from the enemy. They are on all fours. Each one is about the size of a minivan. You can spot them from a half mile away. They range in color from light sage green to a deep emerald. They have stripes like tigers on earth, except their stripes are yellow.
We’ve been trying to colonize this planet for nearly a decade, and the attacks on our bases have been increasing the closer we get to establishing a self-sufficient colony.
****
Trevor is gone before I shower. I go back into the kitchen and think. He has always been quiet and kept his emotions tucked away, but lately he’s been even quieter. And he’s been making it a point to be out of the house before I’m ready to begin my day. I feel like he’s avoiding me, but I can’t imagine why.
****
I was called into the captain’s office after three months of being on team C.
“Have a seat, soldier,” Trevor says without looking up from his screen.
I wait, knowing he’ll start the conversation when he’s ready.
“You’ve been on team C for three months,” he says without any sense of introduction or sedge way. “And you have an excellent record, plus an impressive number of kills.”
I nod. I still don’t speak waiting for him to get to a point.
“And I’m reassigning you,” he says.
“But sir,” I finally speak. “I like being on team C. Did I do something?”
He shakes his head. “No, it’s not like that. We are spreading some of the better soldiers out into the other teams because we need some stronger and more capable troops in each team.”
His explanation seems plausible, but he doesn’t look at me when he speaks.
I don’t get a chance to argue with him because it’s already done. Another three months after this, he will “make his move.” I didn’t know it that day, but I think he reassigned me so we could date.
****
I make his favorite dinner. It’s not something we can make very often because real meat is hard to source on this colony. I spend the day at the market and manage to get one small steak. I also get some fresh vegetables to grill and some supplies to make a salad. I even take time to drop by the spirits store and get his favorite beer.
As we sit down at the table, he thanks me for the meal, but he doesn’t say much else.
I can’t take it anymore. “Is something wrong?” I sit waiting.
He leans back in his chair and stares at me with an expression that I’ve never understood.
I’m not letting this go on any longer. “You’ve been avoiding me. Don’t deny it. It’s noticeable. You’re gone in the morning, and you stay busy all evening so we don’t have any time to spend together. What is going on? Just tell me what it is. I can handle it.” I’ve been through worse, no matter what it is.
He stares at me and says nothing.
“This is ridiculous. Tell me what is going on.” I stare back at him.
He finally lets out a sigh. “I didn’t want to tell you until it was a sure thing, but I’m shipping out again. Soon. To one of the remote colonies. It’s a big promotion for me.”
I stare at him with squinted eyes. “Why wouldn’t you tell me that? You leave occasionally. It’s not anything new.”
“You can’t go with me this time.” He looks at me, and even though I can’t quite bring myself to believe it, he has a tear in his eye. “I’ll be gone for a couple of years is what they’re saying right now.”
“‘Why can’t I go? The families of long term troops have always been allowed to travel with them. I’ll do what I’ve done before. I’m not a solider anymore, but I can fill a lot of other skilled positions at a post.”
“You can’t space jump when you’re pregnant. And children can’t travel until they are ten. Those are the rules for safety reasons.” He has actual tears falling from his eyes at this point.
“I’m not pregnant.” I look at him in confusion.
He pulls up a file on his cell. He turns it to me. It’s the latest lab work we’d had done about a month ago.
I’m pregnant. I didn’t know. He did for a month and didn’t tell me. I’m angry and upset and so many other things.
The number of emotions coursing through me is overwhelming. I pass out.